Anyone who knew me in high school band knew me as the jerk.
A little backstory – As a saxophone player in high school, I was good. Not *great,* but alright. For some reason, difficult parts just came naturally to me. When others (namely woodwinds) would have difficulties with their parts in class I would call them out.
Typical rehearsal day – woodwinds gaff and squeak during rehearsal. Me – Forceful ‘SIGH.’ Woodwinds – continue botched fingerings. Me – “Guys, come on, seriously? Go home and practice!! This went on throughout my high school years. I was brutal! I wanted the band to be better because I knew they could be. I wanted the players to be the best version of themselves.
The earliest example of this was when I was a sophomore, playing tenor saxophone. At the time the alto saxophone players were having trouble with some of their parts. (Still remember the piece, Skyscapes!) So, I challenged the section leader, which never officially took place, and kind of fell into the spot. I was a hard @$$ from then on.
2005 was my first summer as section leader for the marching band. With the hard@$$ery in full swing I was making enemies, mostly of woodwinds, far and wide.
Halfway through the summer, during one of our saxophone rehearsals, a great friend of mine playing 2ndalto, turns to me and says, “I’m thinking about quitting. This isn’t fun anymore, because of you.”
This realization rocked my world.
Someone that I thought highly of was going to stop doing something even though none of my jabs were directed at him, because of my constant barbs. It was a turning point for me. It was in that moment that I learned true humility. It wasn’t about me. Granted it took me a few years to really settle into this new way of being. My feelings were the same, I still wanted everyone to be a better version of themselves and I was still a loudmouth, but the approach had changed. I cared. I lead with passion.
That summer we performed Andrew Boysen Jr.’s beautiful piece Grant Them Eternal Rest in remembrance of the tragic events on Sep 11th 2001. I still have a soft spot for this production due to the profound effect the lessons had on me that summer. It was about something bigger than us. I learned through time to be a better leader, a better friend, and a better person. I learned to lead by example, with passion and determination, but above all to be humble.
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